Bonnie makes everything better <3
Bonnie makes everything better <3
Contemplative
As I sit here on yet another Friday night, I begin to think about the last 6 months of my life. I’m sure the world knows by now that I’ve been slaving away on what is known as the LSAT. I’m beginning to wonder if it’s truly worth giving my whole entire life away. I know I have only 2 months of studying left, but I feel like I’ve hit a wall. I don’t even know if I’m getting better, and lately I’ve had no motivation to study. I know if I don’t study I won’t get better, so in the end, I’m really only hurting myself.
But is working this hard for anything worth it in the end? I mean I’m sure it is..I just feel like if I end up disappointed in the end, I’m going to realize that 1. God never meant it to happen and 2. I wasted 6 months of my life. Now 6 months, in the grand scheme of things, is comparable to a minute of our entire lifespan. And for something that I perceive to be the most important thing in my life right now, I’m certainly not acting like I care.
I want to get better. But I can’t seem to get out of my head. I need a hug. Or maybe just a glass of wine.
Sorry for the delay! I go through spurts when I want to blog and when I don’t.
I am currently working on my Everyday Argument Project again. Seeing as last night I got into an epic fight with Jake, I have loads of new material.
It really threw off my whole day. I was constantly thinking about how bad I felt to have hurt his feelings last night.
I can be a huge bitch.
More to come later.
Current Music: Silence
So yesterday, as I spent hours slaving away in Leavey, I noticed that Jake was laughing to himself while looking at his computer screen. Typically, I would assume that he was on sporcle or that he was watching a youtube video posted by one of his bros (which inadvertantly involves an individual getting hurt in some horrific way). But when I looked over, I noticed he was watching this. I was slightly confused as to why, but he said that sporcle led him to this particular episode. We both talked about our favorite characters in the show (mine is obviously Pooh, especially when he says “Oh bother!”) and then we proceeded to watch the rest of the video. Not that I ever need to be reminded why I am dating Jake—seeing him every day is a reminder in itself—but I realized that there is no one else’s hand I’d rather be holding while watching Winnie the Pooh in Leavey.
This pretty much describes how I feel right now
Sigh
Studying by myself on a Saturday night..hope this pays off.
Current music: The Girl by City And Colour
Cure to Insomnia?
Think happy thoughts :)
Current Music: What You Thought You Need by Jack Johnson
I love him so much. Jake has helped me become a better version of myself. He makes my life so much more meaningful and complete.
This is my third night in a row blogging..some kind of record or something! I guess it’s because this past month (and this week in particular) has given me so much to think about.
I think tonight I might not experience as much insomnia. On that note, any suggestions as to how to sleep better?
Current Music: Hello I’m in Delaware by City and Colour
